I have broke up with Shawn for about a week or so. I just cant stand being controlled by him.I have got OT at times but he dun seems to understand and also keep asking me why OT no extra money but i still need to work OT.This is my job to accomplish whatever i have with me on time.I cant afford to pay for the client if the advertisement does not come out on the newspaper or tv as requested. Now then i realised that im not sad at all cos i have made the right decision in leaving.
Soon after i broke off with him,i'm in love again.Although its faster than i have ever thought,but i really felt the love that i cant even feel when im with Shawn.Im not trying to compare my new love with Shawn but in fact i felt that i love my new love more..
He let me feel as though im his princess.I just went movie with him last Fri..He was holding my hands throughout the whole movie..I fell asleep halfway..lol..He kept helping me to pull my jacket just in case im cold..Maybe due to his age,he is more caring towards his partner. Thats what i love about him. No matter how tired he is after work,he will always come and find me after shower.That what makes me love him even more..He always call me whenever he go smoke when he's at work,he made me feel so warmth and loved..He tends to purposely call and explained things to me just in case i misunderstood him or prevent me from anyhow think.Im those type which i will..But a simple call from him makes my day.He just wants me to feel secured instead of worrying what he's doing and where he will be at work.
Loving him needs alot of courage and which im not very well prepared for it.I only care about the present but not in the future.He told me before that nobody knows about the future. Its true enough.But im just wondering when can we be in a open-relationship rather than to go somewhere else to chat every night.
I have to hide this relationship from my family members..I do not dare to disclose it.. I do not know how my family will react after they came to know about it..i guess someone will have a heart attack or someone might be happy to know about this.Im not sure either..But cos of him,im ready to face any difficulties in the future..
Needless to say,i love him. Im very well informed of his past..But everyone has a past..Maybe he doesnt want me to know about it thats y till now he didnt tell me.I only know I only love the present him not the one in the past..As long as he treats me well enough,im fine..
Hope me and him can stay as long as we can..Bless me...♥♥♥♥♥
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