Tired and yet Happy

Life sometimes is so sickening. It brought happiness and sadness at the same time..
Im happy cos i have Andy with me everyday, sad is he's sick.. he's losing his voice soon..Poor him..And its like im the one who brought this on him. I bought him heaty food and let him drink cold water. Aiyo...im such a "GOOD" wife..kinda feeling guilty since day one he was sick..But i still buy his fav food for him cos i dun wan him to feel unhappy.. The both of us are so silly..
Although whatever i said now might not seems to be im treating him. I love him very much and yet at the same time i like to bite him..
these were the things that he had did for me..
1. buy me Winnie The Pooh
2. accompany me out for dinner always even though his mom has cooked his dinner
3. help me with my jobs when he know that i have got too many jobs on hands but he has many also.
4. brought me to the doctor middle of the night cos im not feeling well
5. buy dinner for my family no matter how tired he is that day
6. wherever i wanna go he sure will accompany me
7. Doesnt allow me to go buy lunch at times cos he always says the weather very hot
8. Always ask me to slp early
9. must dry my hair
10. helps me solve my family problems
11. let me bite
12. let me scold
13. let me scream
14. let me pinch
15. buy me chocolates when he make me angry
16. respect my decisions
17. doesnt allow me to go home myself
18. he send me straight home and see me close the door then he go back on his own
19. buy cigarettes for me
20. give me surprises
21. always pay when i buy things
22. takes care of me at work
23. reminds me to take my meds when im not feeling well
24. no matter how tired he is,he will still wait for me to slp before he slp
25. send me sweet sms before he goes to slp
26. always ask me what i feel like eating without thinking of himself
27. love me more than he loves himself
28. hug me when im feeling very down

And i guess many many more that i didnt mention...He's such a sweet darling.. Although i can see him at work everyday, but i still miss him.. so sometimes i have time, i will turn my head and look at him for awhile to make sure that he's fine..

5 more mths to our ROM, feeling excited and happy..only after that day then i can feel that he's totally mine..im afraid that i will lose him before our ROM..so i keep thinking of a way to make him happy and feel my love. Thats y i keep giving him surprises these few days. I dont want him to leave me anytime. I need him by my side forever and thats for sure..

Its him who helped me get over my ex.. Its him who make me smile again whenever i cried. Its him who always help me with my jobs. Its always him..I guess i cant do anything more if i lose him.

Baby, i may have said this many times but i still wanna say this..

I love you, i really do..I know you wont get tired of me saying this. You are such a silly dear to me.. let me bully you all the time without even thinking of revenging..You dote on me so much that i began to rely on you so much..you love me so much that i started to feel i cant live without you..you miss me so much that i started to miss you just like how you miss me every min every sec.. sometimes you hug me so tight that i know i couldn't breathe but i still dun wan you to let go..With you by my side, i know whatever i will encounter in the future couldn't tear me down..you are already my pillar of strength..i love and need you forever..

Hope your love for me will stay strong always till the end of our life,honey..

Muack.. =)

My new life starts from June...

I have never thought that i could find a serious guy who really love me more than i have ever loved him. I guess no one has ever thought that the person is him. Yes, he is Andy from my office. He is the one giving me a new life..A very happy life.. Maybe this is fate who brought me into this office and gotta know him. Our serious love life starts on 22 June 2011.
How do we got started? hmmm..he didnt ask me be his gf..haha..kinda wierd. But what i can only remember so far is he keep asking me to miss him. At first i found it quite wierd but as time passed, im ok with it.
In the beginning, i dunno how true he is to me cos afterall he's my once a close friend's ex bf. When they were together, i didnt even know about it till Yvone hinted me abt it. At that point of time i can felt hurt. but i dunno exactly why i felt this way.Its meant to be a secret between the 2 of them, but i guess Yvone cant tahan liao so she hinted me. she always says Andy got no time for her at all, call him no ans and sms him no reply. and im so stupid to tell her that this type of guys dun wan better ba..But in the end,im with him.. Sounds not right though,but i cant "siam" this fate lei.. haha
when we first got together,he told me alot of things n which i didnt even realised. He had secretly like me long ago. and i just heard from him that he doesnt wanna let her disclose partly cos of me. Thats silly.. After i got together with him then i realised i got feelings for him long ago ba.. i just didnt realised that.
first day with him together was damn paisei in the office.. WTF!! cos we used to be very close friends but endup out of a sudden we became couple. Under that kind of situation is really very difficult to "swallow" and react!!!!! hahahahaha! But he's the one who made the 1st move by hugging me.. haha! WOW!!! shocked sia... but i dunno why the first time he hugged me i felt his love liao. Power hor??
The 1st day together we shared in facebook that we are in a relationship liao.. I dun wanna be another Yvone.. I dun wan to have an "underground relationship" with him lo.. But surprisingly, he agreed to put our relationship status "IN A RELATIONSHIP" ..heehee.. i was smiling non stop lo.. but i cannot too siao zhang..haha..
i remembered the 1st shopping we went was...U GUESS..........MUSTAFA!!! OMG! fucking romantic DAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO................. With so many "AH NEI". But i got something in return! my fav Winnie The Pooh. Thats the 1st gift that he had bought for me.
As time passed,MORE & MORE WINNIE THE POOH APPEARED!! very small, small, big ,LARGE...I dunno why whatever he did to me was what a bf should do but i still feel so damn happy abt it. Crazy liao. Till now also felt the same way.. Whenever i see him smile, my heart will melt.... But when he smile to other gals the same way, i fucking wanna beat him up!!!!
I cant remember when did we mention we wanna get married liao.. i know thats fast but this is fate lo.. we have so many things in common. Example: Food, smoke, he drink but i dun drink.. most of all is WE ARE BOTH CUTE! hahaha! but he act cute more than me!
My wedding gowns and his suit already settled.. Now waiting for his parents side to confirm the venue..Even the list of guests are already ready.Everything that we needed already planned nicely.
Rom date will be in 14 Feb 2012, 5 more mths to be exact as today is 14 Sep.. We left 5 more mths to prepare all the necessary things..then im officially MRS TAN and he is officially MR CHOY!! hahahaha!
Although we are getting married soon, i felt that his love for me seems to increase!
OHHHH WAIT! before i forget something! If u got see his silly face last night, i bet u will laugh non stop! where got ppl like that de!!!! i told him i at his house downstairs but he still can whatsapp me and say "YA, LIKE REAL!" knn him..... I carried the water bottle all the way from my house to his house for him at 11pm plus lo.. cos he sick mah.. bo bian. i dun wan him sick PLUS next week Gain City Expo... i dun wanna DO ALONE!!! if not i will die.. so i make the herbal tea for him. he shocked tilllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll.................
i know he was touched last night le..his face already showed everything in his mind. He said no one has ever treated him this nice b4. YOU BELIEVE??? NO?? but i believe if not i die till very ugly... hahahaha...
Now he sitting beside me and reading every single word that i type. So no point say so much liao..
This is what i wanna say to him:

Dear, i may not be able to love u more than you love me. But i promise u, i will do my very best in being a good wife to you. Will take care of u whenever you are sick(i hope no),i will love u as much as i can..I maybe sensitive,hot tempered,stubborn and many many more..i hope you will bear with me and love me the same like now in the future. My love for you doesnt decrease but increase tremendously in this few months. Its cos of your love i felt happiness,its cos of your hug and smile that makes me feel warmth. Thank you for everything hubby. Apart from you, i will not share my love with anyone. Sometimes i feel so sorry to throw temper on you and maybe made you feel that i dont love you anymore. But in my heart, im loving you more and more each day. Trust me,honey..My heart, brain and mind is all filled up with your everything. Even if one day(touchwood), i were to knock down by a car that cost me to lose all my memories about you, pls promise me to regain our sweet memories.. I do not want to lose you. Apart from my family, the most important is you. I truly love you with all my heart. Muack hubby..


K la, i think he wanna cry after reading this..haha.. my turn to go smoke later and i shall see whats his reaction. But still, these are hidden in my heart and which i will tell you face to face when we get married.

Love u hubby...

14 Sep 2011