Life Sweet and yet SUCKs.........

My life turned so sweet from the say im with Andy.. And i never thought that we will get married. And as planned, our ROM date is confirmed on 14Feb 2012.
I have alot of things to tell him..I dont mind telling him here cos i know for sure he will read this.

Dear, thanks for all your loves and cares towards me.. Especially when im feeling really down. I loved you more than anybody. My love for you has increased tremendously within these few months and has never ever decrease.. I stayed with you in these 3 weeks and even made me feel that you can take care of me forever. I know you are the man for me in my whole life. Everyday make sure i dont go hungry, make sure i sleep well, make sure im covered with blanket before you slp and also ask me what i wanna wear to work tomorrow and will prepare the clothes for me. you have never failed to let go of my hands when we are crossing the road or even in bus.. you have always made me feel warmth and your love. No one has ever treated me so sweet apart from my family. You took care of me so well. I know you are cold middle of the night cos i can feel your legs are cold but YOU NEVER ADMIT!! You always says "I go hungry nvm but you cannot". haha.. this has became your slogan for me..
I really want you to be my one and only for the rest of my life. But its up to fate. You just need to promise me something. Whatever it is, don't cry for me. You are a tough guy.. and i can say you are a perfect guy. You said i am the first gal you will cry for but i also want to be the last gal that you will be crying for. Can you promise? Nothing in this world will be exactly how you had worked out.. there are things that you will be unexpected of. Example: you never expect that we will be together right? Now we are.
I have caused you alot of troubles. You should know what i meant. From the day i knew you till now, you have never ever been this down before thats y i keep asking you if im bringing bad luck to you. You have sacrificed alot of things for me. even your 2nd financial income. 我害到你很厉害...
I know you always been feeling stress over money issue, you have always said that this sure can be solved. I know.. But how soon can that be? I really doesnt want to see you so stress everytime.. When can heaven give me back my happy go lucky hubby? I really dont know. Soon? I hope...

Now comes my family.. I suddenly felt that my whole family is scattered. I merely trying to help "someone" but end up landed me in fucking big trouble. I really had a hard time explaining to everyone of them in the family.. Im really mentally stress.. To admit, i have tried to ------------ before, but my dearest has to come and hug and comfort me that everything's gonna be ok. and of cos, i have given up that thought at that moment. But i realised as time pass, this thought has came back again out of a sudden. I have to keep myself real busy to stop having that silly thought. But once im free, im in it again.. i think i will suffer from depression soon. Whatever hubby hug me, this thought will really fly off my mind. And when im alone and worst still when im bathing, i will keep looking at the things that can make me "SLP ALL THE WAY WITHOUT WAKING UP". i knew im silly and i also know that the ppl around me will be very damn sad cos of my selfishness. But thats the only way which can make me feel that i am free from all stress. And today, im going home officially after 3 weeks stay from hubby's house. Im praying that everything's gonna be fine and the thought will not come to me when hubby's not here. I have not seen my own hair gets long. I havent get the chance to wear the bridal gown. I have not seen hubby wear the groom's suit. Most important is, i have not seen hubby's "old" face. i wanna see him get old as years pass in the future. I have not been to alot of places with him yet. Maybe that's his dream as what he has told me last night. i knew he was crying but i dont wanna make him "paisei".

I knew that he's afraid that he will not be able to see me the next day. And i have even promised him that he will. is this "empty promise"?? Haiz.. I dunno.. I only know that im really really mentally stress and physically tired thats all. I want a good rest. I want a good sleep. I want a clear mind. But how long do i need to wait for all these to happen? i cant even stand for 1sec more.i just want it NOW.. If smoking really can kills me, i will rather smoke if i've a thousands to do it.,. BUT NO LEI!!!! buay sai..... haha.. ok.. this is 废话.. i know..

anyway someone is already peeping at this post when i have not even blog it! Bless u all that you can still see my post in the future.. I dont hope this to be the last post i will ever post either.

Pray that you all will be fine and including myself.

Love you, my hubby..


=)

Tired and yet Happy

Life sometimes is so sickening. It brought happiness and sadness at the same time..
Im happy cos i have Andy with me everyday, sad is he's sick.. he's losing his voice soon..Poor him..And its like im the one who brought this on him. I bought him heaty food and let him drink cold water. Aiyo...im such a "GOOD" wife..kinda feeling guilty since day one he was sick..But i still buy his fav food for him cos i dun wan him to feel unhappy.. The both of us are so silly..
Although whatever i said now might not seems to be im treating him. I love him very much and yet at the same time i like to bite him..
these were the things that he had did for me..
1. buy me Winnie The Pooh
2. accompany me out for dinner always even though his mom has cooked his dinner
3. help me with my jobs when he know that i have got too many jobs on hands but he has many also.
4. brought me to the doctor middle of the night cos im not feeling well
5. buy dinner for my family no matter how tired he is that day
6. wherever i wanna go he sure will accompany me
7. Doesnt allow me to go buy lunch at times cos he always says the weather very hot
8. Always ask me to slp early
9. must dry my hair
10. helps me solve my family problems
11. let me bite
12. let me scold
13. let me scream
14. let me pinch
15. buy me chocolates when he make me angry
16. respect my decisions
17. doesnt allow me to go home myself
18. he send me straight home and see me close the door then he go back on his own
19. buy cigarettes for me
20. give me surprises
21. always pay when i buy things
22. takes care of me at work
23. reminds me to take my meds when im not feeling well
24. no matter how tired he is,he will still wait for me to slp before he slp
25. send me sweet sms before he goes to slp
26. always ask me what i feel like eating without thinking of himself
27. love me more than he loves himself
28. hug me when im feeling very down

And i guess many many more that i didnt mention...He's such a sweet darling.. Although i can see him at work everyday, but i still miss him.. so sometimes i have time, i will turn my head and look at him for awhile to make sure that he's fine..

5 more mths to our ROM, feeling excited and happy..only after that day then i can feel that he's totally mine..im afraid that i will lose him before our ROM..so i keep thinking of a way to make him happy and feel my love. Thats y i keep giving him surprises these few days. I dont want him to leave me anytime. I need him by my side forever and thats for sure..

Its him who helped me get over my ex.. Its him who make me smile again whenever i cried. Its him who always help me with my jobs. Its always him..I guess i cant do anything more if i lose him.

Baby, i may have said this many times but i still wanna say this..

I love you, i really do..I know you wont get tired of me saying this. You are such a silly dear to me.. let me bully you all the time without even thinking of revenging..You dote on me so much that i began to rely on you so much..you love me so much that i started to feel i cant live without you..you miss me so much that i started to miss you just like how you miss me every min every sec.. sometimes you hug me so tight that i know i couldn't breathe but i still dun wan you to let go..With you by my side, i know whatever i will encounter in the future couldn't tear me down..you are already my pillar of strength..i love and need you forever..

Hope your love for me will stay strong always till the end of our life,honey..

Muack.. =)

My new life starts from June...

I have never thought that i could find a serious guy who really love me more than i have ever loved him. I guess no one has ever thought that the person is him. Yes, he is Andy from my office. He is the one giving me a new life..A very happy life.. Maybe this is fate who brought me into this office and gotta know him. Our serious love life starts on 22 June 2011.
How do we got started? hmmm..he didnt ask me be his gf..haha..kinda wierd. But what i can only remember so far is he keep asking me to miss him. At first i found it quite wierd but as time passed, im ok with it.
In the beginning, i dunno how true he is to me cos afterall he's my once a close friend's ex bf. When they were together, i didnt even know about it till Yvone hinted me abt it. At that point of time i can felt hurt. but i dunno exactly why i felt this way.Its meant to be a secret between the 2 of them, but i guess Yvone cant tahan liao so she hinted me. she always says Andy got no time for her at all, call him no ans and sms him no reply. and im so stupid to tell her that this type of guys dun wan better ba..But in the end,im with him.. Sounds not right though,but i cant "siam" this fate lei.. haha
when we first got together,he told me alot of things n which i didnt even realised. He had secretly like me long ago. and i just heard from him that he doesnt wanna let her disclose partly cos of me. Thats silly.. After i got together with him then i realised i got feelings for him long ago ba.. i just didnt realised that.
first day with him together was damn paisei in the office.. WTF!! cos we used to be very close friends but endup out of a sudden we became couple. Under that kind of situation is really very difficult to "swallow" and react!!!!! hahahahaha! But he's the one who made the 1st move by hugging me.. haha! WOW!!! shocked sia... but i dunno why the first time he hugged me i felt his love liao. Power hor??
The 1st day together we shared in facebook that we are in a relationship liao.. I dun wanna be another Yvone.. I dun wan to have an "underground relationship" with him lo.. But surprisingly, he agreed to put our relationship status "IN A RELATIONSHIP" ..heehee.. i was smiling non stop lo.. but i cannot too siao zhang..haha..
i remembered the 1st shopping we went was...U GUESS..........MUSTAFA!!! OMG! fucking romantic DAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO................. With so many "AH NEI". But i got something in return! my fav Winnie The Pooh. Thats the 1st gift that he had bought for me.
As time passed,MORE & MORE WINNIE THE POOH APPEARED!! very small, small, big ,LARGE...I dunno why whatever he did to me was what a bf should do but i still feel so damn happy abt it. Crazy liao. Till now also felt the same way.. Whenever i see him smile, my heart will melt.... But when he smile to other gals the same way, i fucking wanna beat him up!!!!
I cant remember when did we mention we wanna get married liao.. i know thats fast but this is fate lo.. we have so many things in common. Example: Food, smoke, he drink but i dun drink.. most of all is WE ARE BOTH CUTE! hahaha! but he act cute more than me!
My wedding gowns and his suit already settled.. Now waiting for his parents side to confirm the venue..Even the list of guests are already ready.Everything that we needed already planned nicely.
Rom date will be in 14 Feb 2012, 5 more mths to be exact as today is 14 Sep.. We left 5 more mths to prepare all the necessary things..then im officially MRS TAN and he is officially MR CHOY!! hahahaha!
Although we are getting married soon, i felt that his love for me seems to increase!
OHHHH WAIT! before i forget something! If u got see his silly face last night, i bet u will laugh non stop! where got ppl like that de!!!! i told him i at his house downstairs but he still can whatsapp me and say "YA, LIKE REAL!" knn him..... I carried the water bottle all the way from my house to his house for him at 11pm plus lo.. cos he sick mah.. bo bian. i dun wan him sick PLUS next week Gain City Expo... i dun wanna DO ALONE!!! if not i will die.. so i make the herbal tea for him. he shocked tilllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll.................
i know he was touched last night le..his face already showed everything in his mind. He said no one has ever treated him this nice b4. YOU BELIEVE??? NO?? but i believe if not i die till very ugly... hahahaha...
Now he sitting beside me and reading every single word that i type. So no point say so much liao..
This is what i wanna say to him:

Dear, i may not be able to love u more than you love me. But i promise u, i will do my very best in being a good wife to you. Will take care of u whenever you are sick(i hope no),i will love u as much as i can..I maybe sensitive,hot tempered,stubborn and many many more..i hope you will bear with me and love me the same like now in the future. My love for you doesnt decrease but increase tremendously in this few months. Its cos of your love i felt happiness,its cos of your hug and smile that makes me feel warmth. Thank you for everything hubby. Apart from you, i will not share my love with anyone. Sometimes i feel so sorry to throw temper on you and maybe made you feel that i dont love you anymore. But in my heart, im loving you more and more each day. Trust me,honey..My heart, brain and mind is all filled up with your everything. Even if one day(touchwood), i were to knock down by a car that cost me to lose all my memories about you, pls promise me to regain our sweet memories.. I do not want to lose you. Apart from my family, the most important is you. I truly love you with all my heart. Muack hubby..


K la, i think he wanna cry after reading this..haha.. my turn to go smoke later and i shall see whats his reaction. But still, these are hidden in my heart and which i will tell you face to face when we get married.

Love u hubby...

14 Sep 2011

Im back again for blogging!

Time flies..i guess its been months i didnt blog..too lazy. =)
Im still with the same guy which i was talking about. already cming to 4th month. but im still thinking how far we can go..Let fate decides for us.I still love him as much as i did in the past,but somehow i realised cause of quarrel,we tends to ruin this relationship ourselves. We managed to pullback and salvage it after all those quarrels that we had..He lied to me once and its really difficult for me to trust him again. Although he had said he did nothing wrong behind me,and he told that lie out of goodwill and which he dont know how to tell me the truth. Im so silly till i buy his words.i believed everything he said..Now he became better after we had a good talk that day over fb chat.. Hope he will stay the same to me.WITHOUT TELLING LIES...

Terrible at work lei..This new colleague is sometimes cute and somtimes annoying..haha! How should i put it?? He's fast in buying lunch for us..but slow in learning. I may have the patience at times to teach him what i know.But when im busy, i really have no time to teach him at all.I passed him some of my jobs but end up i have to take back cos he doesnt really "care" about it..Should i put it this way??
I know i have been throwing temper everyday cos im too busy and he cant help me at all.Im feeling guilty abt it everytime i knock of..Although i complain everyday,but thinking back,he's my junior. i must have patience in teaching him whatever i know..and giving him a chance to adapt to our busy timing and urgent jobs that we have everyday.
Gradually,he's learning..bit by bit..he's able to catch up abit of our things..Sounds good..but i dunno how far he can go.. Me and Andy have been teaching him everyday. Hopfully he's able to catch up faster..

Guess thats all i wanna update ba..I shall see when is my laziness gonna go away then i come back blog again! =)

Weekend again!

Its been a week since i went back to work after 2 weeks off..a very tired week for me..
First i will update my work!
Gabriel last year left once,and came back..now he left again..This time he left without any notice!! wa piang!Left all those "sai" for me and andy to kio.. what the hell. Me and Andy thought something must have happened to him thats y he didnt answer our calls..but end up he told Andy that he sian thats y dun wan come back liao. Dunno what is in his mind at that moment.. Now whatever unfinished jobs he had left,me and andy gotta take over.Damn..
Love!
Baby is treating me nicer and nicer each day..And this makes me love him more n more each day. I dunno is it due to his age,he seems to know how to dote on his partner more than anyone else. Whenever he wake up,go work,go smoke,buy dinner,knock off,reach home and go sleep will call and sms me..everyday without fail..He is so sweet.Im praying everyday that hopefully we do not have any difficult obstacles ahead of us. If not i dunno how to face it.Im so stress in the beginning,but he calmed me down..So till now,i have no regrets being with him..Hope this sweetness and love from him wont stop............
Home? Nothing to say. Dont wanna bring up my unhappiness again. Sick and tired of it.I just want myself to be happy everyday thats all....... =)

New Love.. ♥♥

I have broke up with Shawn for about a week or so. I just cant stand being controlled by him.I have got OT at times but he dun seems to understand and also keep asking me why OT no extra money but i still need to work OT.This is my job to accomplish whatever i have with me on time.I cant afford to pay for the client if the advertisement does not come out on the newspaper or tv as requested. Now then i realised that im not sad at all cos i have made the right decision in leaving.
Soon after i broke off with him,i'm in love again.Although its faster than i have ever thought,but i really felt the love that i cant even feel when im with Shawn.Im not trying to compare my new love with Shawn but in fact i felt that i love my new love more..
He let me feel as though im his princess.I just went movie with him last Fri..He was holding my hands throughout the whole movie..I fell asleep halfway..lol..He kept helping me to pull my jacket just in case im cold..Maybe due to his age,he is more caring towards his partner. Thats what i love about him. No matter how tired he is after work,he will always come and find me after shower.That what makes me love him even more..He always call me whenever he go smoke when he's at work,he made me feel so warmth and loved..He tends to purposely call and explained things to me just in case i misunderstood him or prevent me from anyhow think.Im those type which i will..But a simple call from him makes my day.He just wants me to feel secured instead of worrying what he's doing and where he will be at work.
Loving him needs alot of courage and which im not very well prepared for it.I only care about the present but not in the future.He told me before that nobody knows about the future. Its true enough.But im just wondering when can we be in a open-relationship rather than to go somewhere else to chat every night.
I have to hide this relationship from my family members..I do not dare to disclose it.. I do not know how my family will react after they came to know about it..i guess someone will have a heart attack or someone might be happy to know about this.Im not sure either..But cos of him,im ready to face any difficulties in the future..
Needless to say,i love him. Im very well informed of his past..But everyone has a past..Maybe he doesnt want me to know about it thats y till now he didnt tell me.I only know I only love the present him not the one in the past..As long as he treats me well enough,im fine..
Hope me and him can stay as long as we can..Bless me...♥♥♥♥♥

tired.....

Whoever knows me will know the word "TIRED" doesnt seems to leave my mouth..I dont know why..im just TIRED!!
Today is Mon(29Nov) and its already end of the month..Thats reli fast.Another year is finishing in a month's time..And i can feel im getting... (OLDER)..haiz...
Today at work nothing so special...and im happy that my 2bros are coming back tomorrow so i'm passing back the jobs back to one of them!! yeah yeah...I have completed my jobs so here i am blogging in the office again..Bosses not in office so its my ~HAPPY HOUR~ ♥♥
Hope this week can pass faster as my bosses are going Phuket and they wont be in the office for 4days!! Like that my ears can be in peace instead of hearing "KAREN,KAREN!","ANDY,ANDY!","GABRIEL,GABRIEL",and everybody else in the office!!!
And you know what! they Kiasu sia!! pass me jobs that is MAR & APR 2011...omg!! thats like 4 to 5months later...my Dec jobs still havent finish leh..got Jan 2011 de also..
Shawn keep asking me y my jobs cant finish de..HOW I FINISH WOR??!! complete this then another job comes in..or even worse,havent complete this yet another one comes in! My desk can NEVER be clear from papers..But luckily i still can manage with the help from all of them..They are all my saviours!
Its such a fucking good weather to be SLEEPING @ HOME! but here i am in the office..just wondering how come dont rain at night but rain in the afternoon where i have to work..Not fair right?? *im thinking too much*
Kong Ngai has finished their Anniversary last Sat and its a success..especially the glow dragon! Sherman first time performing on stage for Lion Dance..Although he's only playing the instrument but as a 8yrs old kid,he's good..Cos he my BAOBEI mah!
keep thinking of what to type,im too TIRED & LAZY to think liao! i will stop here! going to play texas holdem!

♥♥♥♥♥

Grand The Star - Gep Wai Nai Hua Jai (Eng Subs)

tired...

Here i am nothing to do but blogging in the office..lol...
My dearest is getting really very much better and seems like im loving him more n more each day..Miss him so much even at work..I dont know if he will read my blog but thats fine..haha
Today actually i can be free if Gabriel's here but he went for reservice and will only be back next tue..So his jobs temporary will be with me and Andy..
Early in the morning being called up for a discussion and luckily "he" didnt scold me.But Andy and LatLat is not so lucky today.Especially LatLat..Always get scolded..And i also found out that my lady boss seems to get hot tempered day by day..I dont know why..Anyway both of them are nice if they are in a good mood..But once they are in a bad mood,we all die..
I have been taking up more n more clients that i didnt do before..the one i hate the most is the one who made the most complaints about the position on the newspaper.Cos SPH already said they cant commit to the position that the clients wanted even though they are paying loading.So why must you insist that you wanted it and made so much complaints about the position like a small little kid crying over spilled milk..knn.....
Some clients are very troublesome but some are nice and also easy to handle..Looks like i'm having a hard time to satisfy these type of clients with their demanding requests..Very sian with them..
There are stress in this company but i enjoyed the companion with my colleagues! Esp Yvone!! She's the best colleague that i had ever known..Whenever im sad or happy,she will definitely be listening to me..
I like to go out with her because we have alot in common..we shop,talk or even eat...heeheehee.....If one day she wont be in the office anymore,i wont forget her of cos!! hahaha! I will miss her definitely! Although now i have Shawn,but still she's my very best friend in the office! haha..we even contact each other during weekends..see each other for 5 days liao but still not enough..If this continues then i think we gotta be like superglue..hahahaha!!!!

Good day everybody!! see ya tmr in here again! :)

For my dearest...

I love you more than you can imagine
When I see your face it brighten up my day
I love you more than words can ever tell
Even more than what im about to say

I don't remember the last time i felt like this
You make me feel the real me
You don't know how happy it makes me
When I can share things with you,comfortably

I love the way you smile
I love the way you make me laugh
And you give me hope....
When things get a little sad

All of your hugs makes me feel free
From all the drama and trouble that life brings my way
If i would have 1 wish and one wish only
I wish for this love to be here to stay

I lay in bed at night trying to fall asleep all I can think about is you,you like my fantasy my dream come true,I never knew our love could be this strong half of it probably hasn't been shown,I love the way you smile,I love the way you laugh,I love the fact that you care so much even though we haven't met and the fact that you don't give up even when times get rough,I love when you say I love you and that I always get butterflies even when I'm thinking of you...I'll love you till my dying day,You might not understand how much you mean to me. I love you with all my heart,I want to love and spend the rest of my life with you...

I told you how I really felt,the love I had for you..My worst fear was you'd turn away,but that turned out not to be true.You told me you felt the same,but had the same fear as me..From that day foward,we knew it was meant to be.I hope we'll always be together,and things will never tear apart..I'd also like to remind you that I love you with all my heart..

:)

Happy? Unhappy??

Mixed feelings recently..work,friends and my dearest..

Working longer in this company makes me feels sick.The longer i work,the more ER XIN things that i saw..Especially bosses..We tends to be the BAD person while they are the GOOD person..Why must things turned out this way? I dont understand.Does it means we work for them,we take their pay then we can treated this way? When they are not crazy,they seems fine.But nowadays,they're getting crazier and crazier..Alot of ppl cant tahan them anymore,not me alone..Just kinda wondering how long can i stay in this kind of working environment.Im lazy to change job,Im lazy to go for interview.im even lazy to meet new people..So for the time being,i shall stay where i am now.Not going anywhere..i think there are more disgusting things coming along..I shall see..
Havent been seeing all my friends for so long..Kinda wondering how are they now.Although we did keep in contact sometimes,but it doesnt seems enough..I cant turn back the time like in the past where we can always hang around somewhere to chat or play..Its only chushi then we can see one another..
next is my bf,Shawn..haiz..I have hurt him too deep in the past..Im lucky that we are still together..Im now trying to amend the hurt that i had brought to him last time.I love him the same and i also know he love me the same.I promised him he will be my last and really last.Nobody can enter my heart again.I dont mind waking up abt 4am just to call and wake him up for work.I dont mind i doesnt have enough sleep..I even doesnt mind he has no time for me cos he's really busy with work as its the end of the year now..Missing him every min and every sec..U have my words,dearest..I promised you.. :)

Hope everyone's doing fine! Especially Angie and Jasmi! Its been so long i didnt see these 2 gals..lol..miss them sometimes..I will plan and see when i have the time to meet up with the both of you!

Time to stop blogging and get to slp! Hope tmr will be a fine day to me...Bless me,my friends...

FUCKING HELL ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!

WHAT THE FUCK! So many things had happened when i work here even longer!
I realised my temper has changed to even worse everyday! I just cant stand it..I have been understanding sometimes towards "HER"..but still she doesnt realise that HER WAYS OF WORKING ARE SLOW ENOUGH LIKE A TURTLE! Whenever i do TS,i will always have to quarrel with her..knn..And today its the worst! Gabriel even sided her and say me together! knn...Wads wrong with them today!She can spend the whole fucking day yesterday to do just AN AD,but she didnt start with mine yet..i kept quiet!she only started to do abt 6pm yesterday! But after lunch just now,i went over to her desk and see wads she's doing and again SHE'S STILL AMENDING THAT AD! so i just tell her to do faster..bloody fucking hell,she said MY HANDS ARE LIKE THAT DE! pcb attitude!
After that Gabriel came back from designer's side and say me! SHE CAN DONT WORK OT AND JUST GO BACK AT 6PM,SHE CAN DUN GIVE U DRAFT 1........i was thinking: EH,HELLO! THIS IS HER JOB,IF SHE CANT FINISH HER JOBS BY 6PM,OF COS SHE GOTTA STAY! IF SHE CAN DO FASTER THEN I DUN SEE THE NEED FOR HER TO STAY BACK!WHAT DO U MEAN BY "CAN DUN GIVE ME DRAFT 1"?? SO IT MEANS UR JOB IS A JOB,BUT MY JOB ISNT A JOB!
If you cant do it,then jolly well tell me and ask me to pass to other artist instead of wasting my fucking time like that..
GAB said she got "ALOT" of jobs on hands! WTF,yvone checked already and said only 2 jobs! Like that call "STRESS",y dont she come n take over my post and try being FUCKED BY CLIENTS,FUCKED BY BOSS,PRESSURED BY CLIENTS! YOU COME N TRY IT....IT ISNT FUNNY!
You have your own stress but me too...so u think YOU DONT HAVE TIME TO DO,SO U DELAY! AND WHO KANA FUCK BY CLIENT? NOT YOU BUT ME! i chased after you for the artwork,ITS MY FAULT! i dont chase after you for artwork,ITS MY FAULT ALSO! then what shall i do??
You all are adults so i dun see the need to keep pressuring you and chasing after you for whatever i have with you.Cos i thought you will adjust your own timing..But end up i still have to treat u LIKE A SMALL KID,Keep chasing you for the artwork,gotta sit beside you and keep watching you!
PLEASE LA!!!! I GOT NOTHING TO DO EXCEPT TS IS IT??? I cant possibly sit beside you and just watch you do...DO YOU NEED ME TO WASH THE BACKSIDE FOR YOU AFTER YOU GO SHIT?? DO I NEED TO WIPE YOUR MOUTH FOR YOU AFTER U HAVE EATEN?? DO I NEED TO PULL UP THE BLANKET FOR YOU WHEN YOU ARE ASLEEP???
WHAT THE FUCK! YOU PCB,KNN,CCB........
If im what im used to in the past,i would have beaten you jialat jialat...
Sometimes im in office like crazy playing with everyone,but it doesnt mean im not serious when im busy..i can joke around if i have nothing to do,but when im busy,WORK COMES FRIST..
DO NOT TAKE ME FOR GRANTED AND DO NOT UNDERESTIMATE ME IN THE OFFICE..i can be nice and i can be fine,but the minute u step on my tail,u gonna get it...
im short tempered at times,but sometimes,the bad memories plus anger maybe in my heart for a long time..
SO DONT DARE ME.....

in it again.....

Im in it again..I just cant forget him.Not the things that he had done to me..Its the feelings.We have been together for so long but i just have to let go.. Im always very happy at work cos my colleagues will make me laugh or talk to me.That makes me no time to think of anything else except for work.But after i knock off,it seems like everything will change back to square1..I hate this feelings. But i know i will still have to go thru this myself..I guess only time can help me heal my wounds..
Im still working in Mediatron..im more familiar to the job now.Although there are still alot of things i have to learn,i know they will guide me along..Now im more closer to Yvone in the office.We always had our lunch together and even if we knock off,we still sms over the phone.
Its a good start as i know im getting closer and closer to my colleagues.
I always had alot of fun at work.I thouught i will have trouble waking up everyday for work.But now i guess i can do it.Anyway i have to thank Yvone for accompanying me everyday and listening to my problems and comforting me..I also wannna thank Andy,Gabriel,LatLat,Amo,Cindy and Charles..Im still slow in memorizing,but i will still JIAYOU!! =)
My dearest friends! Please dont anyhow think if i ever neglected u..Im just too sleepy after work.Thats all..Not because i have new friends and dont want u all..Dont think like that..I still love u all the same.Its juz now sometimes after im awake,i need to bathe all that to get myself ready for work..i dont wanna be late..Please try to understand me..I still love u all as before.ok?! =)
Thats all for today's blog!!!

BACK TO BLOGGING!!

I dunno how to start blogging after so long!! lol.. Start about my job first!
I've started working as a Media Executive.Tis job is not as hard as i thought.I learnt alot of things in this 3weeks! I got so many helpful seniors who are by my side everyday! They are Andy,Gabriel and LatLat..I know there are still many things for me to learn about advertisement.I will slowly take my time to learn and memorise all that i can before Gabriel leaves..And i also learnt to SLEEP EARLY WAKE UP EARLY!! lol..I know thats abit unusual for me..But its for real this time! I've been waking up at 7.30am everyday..Im tired but for my "DREAM" job,i know i will get used to it..
Next are my friends..Thanks Alex.Deric,Wenkai,Darryl,Weizhen,Karrie and more for accompanying me regardless of happiness or sad.You all really meant alot to me other than my family.I'm starting to feel abit distant to them.I dont want this to happen and i hate this type of feelings.I hope u all will still be there for me whenever i needed you.And i promise i will be there for you all if you ever need me.
My family..Alain is getting naughtier and naughtier.Tends to scream and shout whenever she dont like anything.I know i cant do anything to stop her from screaming.Sometimes when i knock off from work,i hear her scream i will get irritated.And i also feels that whenever im in bad mood,she will do funny things that can make me forget about my unhappiness.Sherman is also getting naughtier.But afterall he's still my baobei.I still love him the same.I love all my cousins in fact.Although there are some that are not really close to me.
The following are for my dearest friends:

Alex ~ Hope you can really do well in your studies if you really decided to continue.Dont let others SEE YOU NO UP! i will always support you in whatever decisions you make (ONLY WISE DECISIONS)!!I MEAN IT!

Wenkai ~ Hopefully you can find a job soon as you already finish your NS.And actually i found that you had changed alot.You are not the same WENKAI that i had known last time.lol..But i still love you the same! I MEAN AS FRIENDSHIP LOVES!! dont misunderstood me!!

Deric ~ I know you still havent really get over your dad's death.But staying at home cant get you anywhere.Hopefully you will come out if we ask you out again.Your daddy will bless you wherever you are.He knows you are a nice and filial son to him.

Darryl ~ Guai guai finish your NS!! And dont always say SIANZZZZ..there are more SIAN ppl than you in this world.You should feel lucky! lol.I know you dont like your life in NS,but still you gotta finish it..

And for those whom i didnt mention DOES NOT mean i got nothing to tell you.You all are still in my heart!!

Enough of blogging today..Hopefully i got something to post tmr.Night night all..

to all my dearest frends!

A hug is worth a thousand words,but a friend is worth more..

When the world no longer seems to care,there is still comfort in the eyes of a friend..

When love is greatest,words are fewest..

Having you as my friend is really GRAND..

Just wanted to brighten your day..Like you brighten mine! =)

What lies behind us and what lies before us are small matters compared to what lies within us..

Good morning!! Wishes for a daythat's filled with smile and kisses..

Im so glad that we found each other..

Good morning! Just to let you know im thinking of you!

With you my friend,my life brightens up each day..

Found Love

Life is long
And sometimes sweet
Then all at once
A man you meet.

A man so honest
A man so true
Who gives you back
What once was you.

I send to you
Though far apart
A precious gift
Which is my heart.

Just think of me
Before you sleep
My heart I give
For you to keep.

From Friends To Lovers

Sometimes I feel sad and sometimes I feel blue
but whenever I see you, I'm as happy as can be
for you bring a smile upon my face
and a feeling of joy within my heart
you're like my sunshine in the morning
and my stars that glow at night
you're like the waves in the ocean
the cool breeze in the wind
like the call of the birds in the morning dew
like the sounds of beauty in the night
you see all of these things are of beauty and love
that's how I feel whenever you are near
for it was the passion and desire from both of us
that opened up the world for our eyes to see
for our love of each other will grow and grow
and our needs and desires will be more everyday
for a friend you once were and will always be
has turned into love as it should have been
so I want you to know as a friend and lover
that in my heart and arms you'll always stay
for our love for each other will never fade

Remember Before

Today is the day
That I give you this letter
To let you know baby
You make me better
A better man
A better friend
Better to guard you
And always defend
I know we may bicker
I know we may fight
But ill always be yours
At the end of the night
Baby sometimes its hard
But I always want you to see
That no one can come close
To how much you mean to me
So true and so real
Never to leave my heart
Even thought I couldn't say it
I've loved you from the very start
Back when I could only hug you
When i couldn't tell you how I felt
I put this on everything I care for
Babe u made my heart melt
Your laugh was amazing
But your smile was the best
But making you happy forever
Will be the ultimate test
ill give you all my love
Our hearts will forever last
I love being your future
But i cant be only your past'

Beautiful Dream

Sail down the stream
Such a beautiful dream
Never stopping
Never touching anything
Till dawn awakes you
With a breath of the spring

Far from the crowds
Way above the clouds
We can take you to
The edge of the day
And show you living in
A new kind of way

We’ll take you floating to
A sea of morning dew
Where everyone’s the same
And no-one knows your name
And there you’ll see that you can
Live your life to the extreme
Such a beautiful dream

Loneliness

Does the fear of loneliness cause me to be with a person who hurts me
Does the fear of loneliness cause me to care for a person who only deceives me
Does this phobia cause me to dwell in the past, making it so hard to move on
Does this phobia cause me to depend on someone,
Only to find out that that someone is independent
In reality, now I can't depend on anyone else, neither myself
In my state of loneliness, everyone else is paired
Am I the only one who suffers by themselves?
So should I be content with one who doesn't make me happy
Should I be content with another who creates sadness?
For if am alone, there is the possibility of emptiness in my heart
If I am alone, I see the impossibility of ever smiling
I am afraid of being alone